exam,exam

The beginning of the end of tomorrow. I will begin the end of my semester 7. The semester that I thought would be fun, the theory part. I mean emergency nursing is my thing. Not that I'm good at it, though I plan to be good at it, somehow. But I was wrong. It wasn't as interesting as I expected it to be. So, semester 4 still stands as the best semester ever. I love you Mdm. Chee. We had fun during GIT class! Thank God, clinical attachment was a blast. HA at Pandan Mewah, thanks for everything. Of course, being a cam-whore, I did took pics there, but that would be uploaded later. I should be studying now. But somehow, I need to let something out. I think I got this thing called 'reading block' as in 'writers' block'. Well, I am dumb in words.


I miss home. I wish I could fly back but I know, I got studies to finish first. Anyhoo, I'm off to re-read my notes now.

xoxo Miki

overflowing with random thoughts

I've been neglecting my blog for these past weeks. I've been busy doing this and that. So much to write but somehow, sometimes, I'm just lost for words. If only I could just talk, or blurt out what I want to say, and the words would just pop out on the screen. Nice. I could just sit and talk and maybe have a cup of coffee.


I've decided not to go back to Sabah this coming hols. I still, strongly believe that we still have the chance to be posted at Sabah on the next attachment. Chances are slim, but I believe that the Lord will help us all. Amen!

*but I miss home terribly...


Talking about friendship. I know, that I am not really a good friend, and would probably not the best person to talk about friendship. But still, I am careful in this matter. Or you could call me paranoid about this thing called friendship. And I am really not a fan of an unhealthy bestfriend relationship. I have friends like these. Who treats their bestfriends almost like a boyfriend. For me, if it turns out to be like that, then it's unhealthy. Everything have its' boundaries, limitations. But what I've observed, it's..well, another example of lost for words. All I can say is that, it's like being chained. You can't go out, if the others don't want you too, you love to eat this food, but because the other one forced you not too, because she doesn't eat that, suddenly became your family members. Called me anything you want, but if you don't see it, then you don't understand what does all of us, who have been observing this, felt.

*but they seems to be comfortable, being friends like that. Besides, it's their own biz, not mine.


No amount of Hyun Joong's moments can deny my feelings. Huh, I think I've been ignoring all those signs for the past 4 years. Now, it's too late. Maybe. I just don't know. I would just probably concealed myself from him, completely. It feels good, but at the same time I felt bad. Bad, because I've been saying all the wrong things to him without even realizing it. He would just listen and talk with me. Whatever it is, I just hope that he's happy.


xoxo Miki

seeking refuge

I can't wait for 12MN, I'm waiting for Tasya to bring my keys back. I need a shower, badly. yes, I haven't had my shower yet since 8pm last night. She took my key, mistaken it for Ann's keys. So, I have to wait for her until she have finish working. Thank God, I brought along my laptop, hp charger and wallet. I just need to see the house, switch on the fridge's, and shower. First and foremost, SHOWER.

Raja Lawak, finale will be tonight (while typing this, I'm still thinking of shower, and a hot cup of coffee or tea would be nice...), rooting for Alex. Sabah the bomb!! Yay! I'm glad that Grace already got Astro. Meaning, I wouldn't be too sore when World Cup 2010 comes around. Hopefully, my favourites will win this year. I did cried when France lose last time. Well, not actually my favourite team, I was rooting for England, Portugal and Germany. Not really a fan of Italy, the football team. But, nevertheless, may the best team win. And in 2006, Italy was the best.

It's hard to curb my addiction to Dangyunhaji now. And I started watching Coffee Prince again. Yoon Eun Hye, aja! But, on the bright side, I managed to balance it with revision. If I'm going to do well in Ampang GH, then I have to nail down everything that I have learn and been taught. So, my brain is still functioning well, I guess.
Strangely enough, I feel at ease when she's not at home. I feel happy again. So, I think we can conclude that she just got this very odd vibe, the kind of vibe that is so unpleasant. Even the sound of her voice is annoying. Seriously.

I've got a few wish list on my mind right now. Including an indulgence. And a lifelong dream. Well, call me a dreamer, but so are you.

I want this bag, I know I will not be able to buy this, if I want the original one, but I'm not really a big fan of designer bag, just the same like this is fine by me. This one look cute. For me, that is.

I want hair like this. Not really the rebonding type which is a craze for every girl. It's bouncy, shiny (I know it's photoshop sometimes), Still, I want a hair like hers. And I wish I'm pretty like her.

And a boyfriend like Kim Hyun Joong, perhaps? Don't watch him on Boys Over Flower. Watch him on We Got Married. I fall in love with him straight away. No, I'm not blinded by his pretty face. Just a pretty face won't do for me, thank you very much. If they guy is good looking but acting like a jerk, then I might use my TKD on him. Yes, I like hawt guys, but just hawtness wont promise a happy ending you know. You have to able to make me smile on weary days, face my craziness, and yeah, you should have brain. Not a useless brain. (ugh, that was straight forward).

Kim Jeong Hoon will do too. I like brainy guys, ones who can make witty remarks. Witty, but not insulting. If you are insulting or trying too hard, I'm just going to write you off. Hoho. Yes, I am very picky. Girls should be picky, you know. There's nothing wrong with that. We deserved the best. LOL.

Next on the line, gaining a place to further my diploma to degree of nursing in the prestigious University of Edinburgh. By the way, Sir Arthur Conan Doyle used to read medicine here. My friend, Meryl, sat in the class where Sir Arthur used to sat during his days. If you don't have any idea on who was this Sir Arthur, perhaps you might know, Sherlock Holmes and Dr. Watson. Yes, he was the author of Sherlock Holmes. And yes, he was a doctor.
Cross-fingers for this!!!

And of course, I have to pass my LJM exam. Must get my license first.

xoxo - miki kim (lol)

another quicky update

I am chopped liver.


I need my mum.


I need home.


Having said that, apart from your family, your childhood, and high school friends are still the best, compared to people whom you just met. Well, I do met some nice people here like, Ina, my roommate, Kak Ieda, who almost felt like a big sister to me. And then Beby, the half Arabian and half Sabahan, and Echil. But, not all high school friends are great though. In terms of knowing me well, they are the best. They have gotten pass over my craziness, They are harsh, unbiased, cool, and undeniably a good sport. I miss them, I miss them all. Really, truly miss them a lot. If only they knew..


Tomorrow is my day! Although I'm broke, well, I'm just going to go.

xoxo.

i don't care, eh,eh,eh,eh,eh

current favourite song, hoho, i don't care, eh,eh,eh..LOL

i can finally take a deep breath now, sit back, and relax.. for a week. clinical posting coming up. most probably can't wait to go to ampang gh, and psy hospital.

talking about posting, i guess west malaysia got many cases. we don't get much severe cases in sabah, at least not where i was posted. but work wise, sabah is still the best. at where i was posted lah, don't know about other places.

i think i'm going to list down something. it will probably be just stupid but i don't care, eh,eh,eh,eh (mania sdh kali ni).

hostel paling best: labuan and kota marudu (tia pyh bayar bil, got tv, dvd player, - LOL)
hospital yg se paling rajin buat keja: it will be between kota marudu and semporna, can't decide
hospital plg cantik and paling lengkap: putrajaya..so far.
machine ECG (electrocardiogram - it records the electrical conductivity of the heart) yg paling sandih : putrajaya.
ER yg paling busy : putrajaya and semporna (sikit lagi patah kaki)
staff paling best : semporna lah
hospital paling best : semporna - y? because they gave us chances to ask and to do works. we simply glided through the hospital under our own power, the people are nice (most of them, some of them act snobbish or really gatal), i got my first post-mortem cases here. the doctor assisted me to insert CBD (dunia t'balik), pleural tapping sangat kenyang (many cases, i lost count after 10).

crazy post, i know. product of a boring saturday. i don't care, eh,eh,eh,eh

xoxo: mrs.cullen