i am seriously agitated..

I've single handedly finished our seo presentation. It's a one man work again, where I got a lot of saying "nanti kmi edit info yg kmi dpt, nanti tggl copy paste lg dlm power point". So I ended up with a lot of pages to go through, and unnecessary double works to do.*sigh*, no use of complaining now. It's all been done but seriously, it's not great. Just a lot of copy n paste. I hate that but the only way so that I won't woke up and I find myself in the ER, because of fatigue and overworked.

Diagnosis and interventions, *sigh again* , still not finished yet...SEO is mind boggling, Kak Ieda, haven't come and see it yet..and I'm just too sick to walk to level 2 now. I was soaked up in heavy rain just now. Determination to finish up the works. Where else could you find a person like me?? LOL, show off...

By the way, Kak Ieda, seems to approve my work so I can take a deep breath...for now. She also gave me this movie called Kuntilanak. It seems like I'm a little outdated..everyone already seen this movie, apparently. But the movie has to wait though..Headache. Semester 7 is not that great, PKM is killing me. Wow, I must really hate the tension and stress. I'm trying to make it great, is trying to get good result in tests, but it is fair when someone cheats??? Damn it. I really hate exam cheaters. How can they be proud of it???

I managed to get myself in a total self-humiliation again. Apparently, as I was watching some live TV show at Jusco, the camera was rolling towards us, and there you go, a few seconds on live TV. I think it was aired at TV2. What a noob. I will not stop to see another show again. Ever. Unless it it something interesting.

I'm off now.

xoxo senora edward cullen (owez will be, haha)

I overslept because I'm freaking tired

That was a pathetic reason, since Kak Ieja did all the editing, while I did nothing, well, I did do my part. But still, I hate editing. It'll make my head ache to the maxima. Besides, I've done enough one man work in the past semester's assignments, so it is only fair that I will sit back now, and let others be the leader.
I don't know why I get so tired easily nowadays. Is it the hormone? or the stress seeping through my system? The cause might be idiopathic. But still it bothered me. What happened? I'm not used to this. Being not able to think of a cause. Is my thought process or cognitive skills had been altered in any ways?

Being away from family is really hard. I can't ran to my mum whenever I had something to say. It's hard to talk on the phone, because I had to fight back the tears and sobbing. I just missed home, at all times. I can't think of anyone else who would love me unconditionally like my family. Perhaps maybe Edward Cullen, but we all know that he's taken and yeah, he's FICTIONAL. Robert Pattinson maybe? (Stop dreaming unrealistic dream Vianly). My point is that, even if all else is gone, e.g, bf left us brokenhearted and we are left alone to pick up the pieces of our shattered heart (cis, ayat apa ni), as long as we have our family, everything is alright. Trust me, I know so.

The hopes and dreams of a clinical attachment in Sabah is greatly diminished day by day. Why do Sabahans had to suffer?? At least the ones who are still here. Just because one of us got pregnant doesn't mean the rest are the same. The words still tingling within my mind. "hantar kamu balik posting sabah, balik sini bawa perut", it's hurtful. Of course, the rest of us are all goody-goody, I don't know why the coordinator had to said those words to us. Just because we are Sabahans. That's why I hate Peninsular. Hello, there are others who got pregnant, but they did D&C, like we don't know. At least she didn't kill the baby. But what goes around, comes around and like my friend's saying "kisas, tia lari p mana2 juga" meaning, karma, is not going anywhere, sooner or later it will come. I don't blame anyone, but please be considerate when you said, "besok2, kamu lah tu". But like she said, life is about choices. You can choose your life. And don't worry, we will live well. According to our choice, which is the good ones. But anyway, everything happens for a reason. I'm just hoping that things will go accordingly well.

No matter how hard it is now, I'm not going to quit. Never. Writing this post makes me want to cry. I'm not going to lie, but life is hard at the moment, there is no one to talk to, no shoulders to cry on. Life is wonderful but it is nothing if it doesn't bring us to tears.

p/s I'm sorry if I've offended anyone.

Our New Moon Date

I decided that after that emo, sad post, I'm going to put up something fun. He's not worth it to be sad of. This sounds so corny but I'm going to say it anyway, GIRL POWER!!! Haha.
So, New Moon came out on the 26th Nov (Malaysia), but we only get to see it on the 27th. I still got my clinical attachment to finish on the 26th (delivering babies, hehe), and Staceylin @ Enteng still got her assignments. Since we don't have boyfriends, LOL, we had each other though. It doesn't help that both of us are madly in love with a fictional character and also with Rob Pattinson, so Robsessed!! The tickets were selling fast on that day!!!
We had brunch at Dunkin Donuts, btw, having donuts for breakfast is not healthy, but I'll make an exception sometimes. Since I started learning nursing and all those diseases, it made me a health freak. But, still, it was very yummy!! All day of gossiping, catching up with our oh so boring life. I'm a nursing student (a slacking one though, people said that our course is medical, but it's a bit confusing, medical is for doctors and so on, so, ours is just nursing, hehe, the beauty of being one of a kind), she's a media student. I had a lot of friends who took nursing course, but I'm not close to them, with the exception of Xanalieya, she's the expert in maternity and babies. During my O&G semester, I had to lean on her a lot. Thanks a lot!! (I got A for my O & G, peace!!!) And so, I'm BFF with Stacey since we were like in high school. But there were times where we grew apart but that's okay, it's just a stage in life. And now, we on the track again!! Wokey..that was a lot of babbling. LOL.

It's pictures' time now!!









I'm too lazy to upload more pics. I have uploaded the rest to my FB albums. Anyway, I really do miss her a lot. It's nice to get to hang out with her. Anyhoo..I'm going to sign off for now. Had to take shower, and maybe have some coffee, I'm on diet now. LOL

Officially a DL's homie. LOL

TGIF!!! (thank God it's Friday).
OSCE was done, I think I did well,hopefully, I can get good marks again. Let us all hope for that, well at least to those of you who likes me. LOL. And oh by the way, DL is dean list, haha, not any guy's name. After 4 semesters of being in the list, I can now entitled to that privilege. Thank you Lord for everything.
I am really thankful and very blessed to have a wonderful family. No matter what situation I'm in, they will always be there for me. Always. Not forgetting my few but nonetheless wonderful and caring friends. Enteng, Kiah, I love you gals!! Thanks for being there for me.
Anyway, if there is any grammar mistakes here, then I'm very sorry, but then again, this is not an English class. This is merely my blog, the place where I find solitude bashing out everything I need to let go. And besides, I can always improve on my English.

Mdm. R is going to resign soon????!!! *gasp* It's like a death sentence on us. At least wait until we'll finish our LJM exam.. Now who's going to do OBG revision for us?? She's like the best in that field. The expert in the world of expertise, no joking in that matter. She's one of the best. I'm really going to miss her...

Can't wait to finish my course at this college. Next week, we will commence our finale year. Goal : to gain more knowledge and skills before I become a registered staffnurse. In order to provide nursing care, I mean a good nursing care to my patient, I have to work harder, and of course, I will have to finish all my crosses next year. I do feel scared a bit. I hope I can handle it all. Okay so, maybe I'm getting more serious in my finale year. No more playing games you guys. I maybe a natural in scoring on exams, but sometimes it don't happen that often, LOL, and I still need to read my notes and lots of books too.

I realized that there are new cliques forming now. Hurm..that's strange. And it made me wonder if I did any wrong. Well, F won't talk to me. She just let her back talked to me though. Wow, am I that annoying? Isn't it considered rude to not to talk to people that you've known well? Isn't that applicable to me anymore? She didn't even had the courtesy to say hi or look at my face. But I don't care, really. Edward Cullen is more important, even though he's fictional. And I got my own life to worry about. Worrying about her not talking to me would be the last thing on my mind. I'm just hanging on as it is. I have to admit though, it did broke my heart a bit. Oh well, everything happens for a reason and sometimes a whole lots of reasons.

I'm broke this week. Haha, mumy, needed money, seriously. Mwahaha.
I'll be home on the 18th till 3rd of Jan. Two weeks only so I'm going to use my time for my family. Owen..kakak coming home soon. Isk, been homesick for far too long already.

☆ the reason ☆

I will not be updating my old blog anymore. Come to think of it, I really hate it. It's getting more to emo now. And I'm not that emo. Only when I feel down. And, I've changed my templates. I'm so Twilight maniac. But I totally love it!!! I will try to make my blog less emo now, but then again, I can't lie to my feelings though. But then again, I can help to be less bitter about life and it's challenges. I need to improve myself. To be less bitter would be nice.

Semester five's result is coming out this Monday. It was deemed as unsatisfactory. It's freaking me out. I am really worried now. The unknown really scared me. But, what to do now? Just wait and pray for the best. God will always be there for us...

Honestly, I can't wait to get back to class. I'm pump up for the new semester. I don't know why, I'm so excited, but I think it got to do with us being in finale year. Can't wait to go for LJM and leave the bittersweet memories here..ah well, let us not be sad over many matters of sadness.

I already watch New Moon with Staceylin @ Enteng, gosh, how I miss her a lot. The only person who understand my obsession with Twilight Saga and Edward Cullen. I just love her, she's my bestie. I can't wait for our next meeting. I will post some pics later. Not today. I just finished uploading our pics on Facebook, so Blogspot will have to wait. LOL