where's my rainbow

Na li you cai hong gao su wo
Tell me where the rainbow is

Neng bu neng ba wo de yuan wang huan gei wo
Could you still give me back my wish

Wei shen me tian zhe me an jing
Why is the sky so silent?

Suo you de yun dou pao dao wo zhe li
All of the clouds are running to me

Verse:
You mei you kou zhao yi ge gei wo
Is there a mask for me?

Shi huai shuo le tai duo jiu cheng zhen bu liao
Recalling too much of the past words can accomplish nothing

Ye xu shi jian shi yi zhong jie yao
Perhaps time is a kind of antidote

Ye shi wo xian zai zheng fu xia de du yao
And also the first poison I'm taking now

Kan bu jian ni de xiao wo zen me shui de zhao
I could not see your smile, how can I sleep well

Ni de shen ying zhe me jing wo que bao bu dao
Your silhouette is so close to me, yet I cannot embrace it

Mei you di qiu tai yang hai shi hui rao
Without earth, the sun can still circle around

Mei you li you wo ye neng zi ji zou
Without reasons, I also can walk alone

Ni yao li kai wo zhi dao hen jian dan
You want to go away, I know that is very easy

Ni shuo yi lai shi wo men de zu ai
You said dependence is our obstacle

Jiu suan fang kai dan neng bu neng bie mo shou wo de ai
Even if we break up, but couldn't you not receive my love

Dang zuo wo zui hou cai ming bai
Assuming I'm the last to understand


This is going to be a long post. You have been warned.

My head is spinning. Isk, it hurts. When I tried not to think about him, well, I can't stop. I was the Vanilla, he was the Chocolate. But it was long gone. I was stupid. Bodoh, bego, bangang. I didn't take the chance when I had to. Now, he had slipped away from me. But I don't blame myself (but I just did), maybe he's not the one for me. How I wish he is..

He said I didn't need to suffer anymore. Wrong. I am. But I need to be strong, for myself, my family, for people who are concerns about me. I've been keeping this for too long already. I still can remember his smile, the kind of smile that will make everyone's hearts flutters, his precise words, the way he walks and when he's tired, he'll be singing to MJ's Thriller. And we would laugh about it because he's ain't got the Adam Lambert's voice. The way he look when he wants to console me whenever I want to cry. It was the saddest look that I will immediately tell him I'm alright, and do my work. Even after I've said that, he will still look troubled and concerns.

I knew it from the start, that I couldn't be with him forever. I'm thankful that I've known him and thankful that somehow, even we are apart, he still love me. Even he got her now..he still does. Time will tell whether we will meet again.

Only time.