sick, and still thinking

still recovering from high fever and a very bad flu. and now, i'm beginning to have sore throat. and i have to cancel several plans on V-Day's. always hate being sick. and no, i don't hate sick people. and all the while i'm on bed (couldn't woke up at some point) i've done some thinking, or should i say, the thinking comes to me. okay..now, i'm getting crazier. i knew how much i wanted to go to the uk to further studies, or maybe work and live there for the rest of my life. but i knew that it's not going to be easy. maybe it will take some time. i still got a 3 year bond to fulfill later on. i knew that i must not rush things, GOD knows what's best for me..so, i'm going to work hard and pray that my prayers will be granted.sometimes, things may not turn out like we have plan, but all are according to God's will.

i really want to watch percy jackson and the lightning thief, i heard that it was awesome. now, i have to find the rest of the books. yeah, i will turn to books first, just like the harry potter's series. they were my constant and loyal companions while i was in high school. i don't belong to nay cliques. i'm not pretty to be look at, no one will follows me. which is ok for me. books, books, anne of green gables, jane austen's, R.L. Stine's fear streets. . then not forgetting enid blyton's books. yeah, you can call me immature, still a kid, or whatever. i just don't care. i love books. so what?

sometimes i wish i could turn back time. but what's life if we can do that? no lessons to be learn, no memories to recall. like one wise friend used to say : the past is not for us to regret, the future is not for us to worry, it is the present that we should appreciate.

xoxo.